How can something so good, be soooo bad?

I remember feeling so full in my heart when I received every good morning message. This sort of attention was flattering and I thought it signalled a man who was starting to care deeply for me and wanted to build a strong foundation for a relationship that would stay strong through the struggles of our 'outside the ordinary' love affair...oh how wrong I was, it was part of a cruel, unscrupulous mind game.

Unfortunately some of us fall under the spell of a lover who at first is complimentary, like-minded and devoted to only you. I shared lover's secret desires, accepted your faults and wanted to help you achieve your dreams as I chased my own. Not once did I ever think those conversations would be used to manipulate me into a one-sided fantasy where I did all the giving, nurturing and accepting.

This could be a waste of my time and energy, but something drives me to share these short stories, fiction or non-fiction  Whatever else happens, I know it will help others and how you react I don't care to ever know, that is not important. My intent in sharing, is to convince myself I'm not crazy and I made the right decision to open my heart to be loved with the right feeling.